Headache....

I have a headache....I'm starting to feel like this is a metaphor for life....except that I think I'm just spiralling into a black mood today.

I wanted to write...but this headache is gnawing at my brain. Like a rabid animal....A feral creature....chewing.

Thrumming against the inside of my skull. Throbbing. Playing my own secret Morbid Angel tune inside my head.

That no one else can hear. No one. Only Me.

I know I need to write. Most days I want to.

Except for when I don't. Except for when I lie to myself.

Because there's not enough to war with in the real World...I wouldn't be Me if I didn't war from within as well....

I need to write. I need to sleep. I need to breathe. I need to accept. Accept myself & allow the changes to happen.

Instead of resisting. Forever Resisting. Because still I cause change.

It'll hurt less if I stop fighting.

But still I fight....

But Who is it I'm fighting now?...

Is it Me?....I think it's Me....

Can you hear Me?.....