Conundrum...

I want to live in the middle of nowhere....away from people...& simply drop out of a society I never much belonged in anyways. & yet when I'm at home & have downtime...or cannot sleep...I find myself on Social Networks..reaching out to people. Through machines. Even now...I write....to no one...but I'm still putting my thoughts out there on the interwebs. Releasing them into the Ether.

I value very little...more than I do my Freedom...& yet I find my Heart still trying to believe in things like "Soul Mates". I tell it to "Shut the fuck up!..." But the Heart wants...what the Heart wants...

I don't want to need ...anyone. & yet whenever I meet someone new...I find myself looking for that familiar spark...that flicker behind their eyes...

I have always considered myself an Individual....but even I seek somewhere to belong. Even if it's merely within "my pack".

I have a strong Voice...especially in written words....but when I have to speak...when I truely have something to say...the cat steals away with my tongue. When I want to say Everything...I say Nothing.

I get most of my creative inspiration from Dreams...Yet I am an Insomniac.

I am a very Literal person...saying only what I mean...saying only the Truth...yet I think & speak in metaphors. My thoughts are infinitely tangled with bits of stories & poetry ...& songs....

I consider Music as neccessary as Air...but cannot play a note. Not well, anyways.

I do not believe in God...but I believe in Magick...

I do not believe in "True Love"...yet I wish on Stars...

I'm unsure as to whether or not I believe in Rebirth...yet I dream of other "whens"...specifically of a Native American Shaman...

I am Lost, & I say I no longer care....& yet I continue to Seek. Continue to Quest....

I'm a jigsaw puzzle with missing pieces....& I think I left my map in the car...Where the fuck are those car keys anyways?...